おかえり

I know, this is a never-ending cycle of me being happy then not so much then happy again. But the more I think about it, I realize how this isn't what I need right now. I don't need someone who's so half-assed about the little things. You set things to do but then you forget to bring it. You keep on talking about the things you want to buy, as if you don't remember how much you still owe me. You stop replying to our conversations because you suddenly decide to watch something without even telling me. You proceed with things that are so unplanned that we end up looking like we don't know where the fuck we are.

In case you haven't noticed, I see all these things and remember them so much more. It's not like you've done anything really nice for me as of late anyway so what am I to hold against all these?

I wasn't lying about how much of a turn-on you are. You always do your best to make me feel beautiful and amazing, and go out of your way to visit and spend time with me even if we live really far from each other. You always find ways to show me how much you love me. And I also love how you surprise me with kisses, then ask me if I am okay with being touched. And of course, I indulge in that. I love how you get hard for me and then proceed fucking me no matter where we are.

Ugh sometimes I realize how much of a fool I am for always doubting you.

I don't mind you just disappearing and seen-zone-ing my messages because you're busy working but can you at least listen to me talk about how my day went? :\ Tangina naman.