confession

I won't ever be your cornerstone
I don't want to be here holding on

I'm tired of this cycle: of having to continuously find my place in spaces promised to me I could situate myself in, only to find out that (like always) it isn't the case. I guess this time I was too optimistic, given that this would be the first time I wouldn't have to fight for something people made me think and feel I deserved. The term "part-time relationship" fits us so well, no? All the affirmation I feel comes from everyone else but you and that makes me wonder if I'm the only one fighting for this now.

Nothing hurts more than only being wanted when remembered.

Right now I guess I'll only be able to cope up with this if I put this whole thing in this perspective: I guess I'm only taken less than ten days in a month. And I'll begin treating you and this whole thing as such if I still want to brave the other twenty or so days that I'm not.