scared

Oct. 28th, 2014 06:53 pm
okaeri: (p4; souji fcking seta)
I know, this is a never-ending cycle of me being happy then not so much then happy again. But the more I think about it, I realize how this isn't what I need right now. I don't need someone who's so half-assed about the little things. You set things to do but then you forget to bring it. You keep on talking about the things you want to buy, as if you don't remember how much you still owe me. You stop replying to our conversations because you suddenly decide to watch something without even telling me. You proceed with things that are so unplanned that we end up looking like we don't know where the fuck we are.

In case you haven't noticed, I see all these things and remember them so much more. It's not like you've done anything really nice for me as of late anyway so what am I to hold against all these?

future

Aug. 27th, 2014 06:12 pm
okaeri: (Default)
I know we always fight and get into arguments (mostly my fault, because I'm a huge sensitive bitch) but I can't help but be thankful that we have them. It's always through these that we get to know about each other more. About how we want this relationship to work out. About how you want to spend the next two, five or ten years with me. About how much we want to love each other and make things perfect for the other.

Thank you for always giving me a reason to keep on loving.

turn on

Aug. 6th, 2014 12:24 am
okaeri: (horikita; look)
I wasn't lying about how much of a turn-on you are. You always do your best to make me feel beautiful and amazing, and go out of your way to visit and spend time with me even if we live really far from each other. You always find ways to show me how much you love me. And I also love how you surprise me with kisses, then ask me if I am okay with being touched. And of course, I indulge in that. I love how you get hard for me and then proceed fucking me no matter where we are.

Ugh sometimes I realize how much of a fool I am for always doubting you.

musings

May. 22nd, 2014 10:24 pm
okaeri: (Default)
Nakakatakot isipin na malapit na talaga akong sumuko. Nakakapagod na rin siguro na isang taon na pero paulit-ulit parin yung problemang iniiyakan ko.

Anyone would think na after everything you've done to me, you'd be making the extra mile or two to make me feel like staying is the right choice. But alam mo, sa totoo lang, parang wala eh. Parang mas lalo mo lang akong binabale-wala ngayon. Dahil ba sigurado kang di ako aalis? Na "mahal" naman kita at di kita maiiwan? Siguro nga pero di naman ako ganun katanga para mag-tiis na lang lagi.

Sobrang pagod na ako.
okaeri: (horikita; look)
I don't mind you just disappearing and seen-zone-ing my messages because you're busy working but can you at least listen to me talk about how my day went? :\ Tangina naman.

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